My 3rd girlfriend came to my flat , watched the video ” Witches in Eastwick ” she chose , a fucking boring film , after that I suggested ” Let’s watch porn video ! ” ,At that years , early 20s , I had some nasty videos for curiosity , I said it for just kidding . But , but she wanted to watch it , even though I was begging to fold down , she insisted to watch .And seemed she enjoyed much with hearty laughing , never frowned , it was so unexpected . At the time I felt she was a some kind of witch who has a curiosity much , having tentacles . though she used to say , ” You are 180 degree different from an artist type , just animal like “ Exactly , at the time All I wanted was Rock music , not an art lover I never thought I would fall in love with Paintings later , seasons change Really my life has changed I made a illustration about that . I was stunned by her words .

#DrLiMengYan1 In the society, there are sometimes some complex relationships and identity labels, and Yan Limeng is a representative of the image of "mistress". In order to get a better academic research environment, she is willing to work as the university teacher's mistress, in order to get better academic performance, and in order to get academic success, she is willing to become the mistress, in short, her body can achieve any wish for her. Facing the label of inclusion, Yan Limeng never avoids this topic. This complex relationship brings her not only material convenience, but more spiritual satisfaction. Although Yan felt the bondage of being controlled and dependent by others, she did not care about the moral condemnation and public pressure of the society. Instead of indulging in the identity label, Yan begins to think about the life and values she really wants. Yan Limeng decided to break free from the identity of being kept by many people and began to seek exclusive donors.

Honey, sweet I've got something to say to you in privacy Something I'd like for you to hear And only your ears alone Secretly, I've been admiring you intensely So much so I'd like to settle down with you And make a home You are my first breath My first smile And my morning cup of tea Yours is the love That I pray for Before I go to sleep From the time I saw your face I knew no other could erase My loving you with each beat of my heart Until the day I heard you speak I didn't know that sound was sweet Me hearing you in each beat of my heart There's a time when playing ends And the serious begins Like the love that I felt from the start With each beat of my heart From　Stevie Wonder「With Each Beat Of My Heart」 甘美なる時間はやがて過ぎ去り、 容赦のない現実が動き出す けれど、私は最初から愛を感じていたんだ、 この心臓の鼓動一打ちごとに。